10 Day Challenge Day 3: 8 Fears

#10 secrets // #09 loves // #08 fears // #07 wants // #06 places // #05 foods // #04 books // #03 films // #02 songs // #01 picture of yourself.

8 Fears. God help me. 

8. Being Alone. I am deathly afraid of being deserted and left alone with nobody. It makes me shiver just thinking about it. 

7. Failure. I want to be a successful person, who kicks ass and takes names. I was distraught when I failed my driving test. 

6. Medical Procedures. Christ, the thoughts of having any kind of surgery or treatment where there are...instruments (bleargh) used... Nope. Cant be doing with that. Thanks, but no thanks.

5. Heartbreak. I think this one is pretty self explanatory. 

4. Panic Attacks and Depression. I've beat Panics, and still have struggles with depression, but I'm terrified of them creeping back up on me again.

3. Moths. This one is a bonafide PHOBIA. I f**king hate them. I cannot even cope with that bit in The Silence of The Lambs... *shivers* 

2. Being Murdered/Raped/Kidnapped. I've read books about Josef Fritzl, about murder cases and the whole kit'n'caboodle, and I am terrified of being the victim of anything like that. Even being mugged is a fear. 

1. Growing Up. I'm 21 years of age, have been standing on my own two feet since I finished school, don't rely on my parents for money or anything of the sort and yet, the concept of being an actual grown up adult person scares me witless. 

What do you make of my fears?
Tomorrow, 7 Wants!

Amy xx 

Bucket List

Everyone says they have a bucket list, but most people don't actually have a physical list. I have a few things I want to do before my next birthday, so here I go, trying to make this list as attainable, but still goal-oriented as possible!

1. Pass the Driving Test...

I really want to pass my driving test first time. My dad did it, so why can't I?! I want to pass it well, come to think of it. I'm a pretty good driver, I have done my turnabout perfectly on a steep hill, first time in lessons, so here's hoping. My test date is July 4th, so it's getting close!! 

2. Get a Full-Time Job...

I barely suffered through college, and then I had some problems with my mental health so I've been out of work for a while now, and while most people would say "Go back to college you silly girl!!", I just want to enter the working world, save some money and figure out where my life is headed! I really don't think its fair to expect kids aged 17/18 to know what they want to do with their lives. I'm 21 and I still don't know what I'm good at!! 

3. Help Someone Face A Fear...

I've been plenty scared in my day, lots of worries and silly hurdles I had to jump! But I've jumped them, and I have my amazing friends and boyfriend to thank for helping me find the courage to overcome them. I've faced my fear of needles this year, and I've found the courage to be more public with my blogging endeavors! The biggest one was having blood taken, and Chris actually came down from Dundalk, spent the night in my house and got up early to come and hold my hand when the nurse took the blood. Top boyfriend, is my Christopher!!

4. Thank Everyone Who Has Been There For Me At My Worst...

I probably won't ever be able to do this one properly. I will stress that word, properly, because I will do it, but not enough. There will never be enough gratitude, thanks and hugs for all the people who stayed up countless nights with me, fought with me, kicked me up the bum, told me the truth, and let me just say what I had to, in order to get better. I even have specialist doctors to thank, because they got me on a level, and aside from mini cracks, I'm the new and improved Amy! Finally!!

5. Go Compound...

I've been a Recurve shooter for years now, but my shoulder is, to use the technical term, "fucked" because I've been a twonk and not stretched, except a handful of times. Cue me being pretty much saddled with a bum rotator cuff for the forseeable future! This means, that I have two choices; Compound Archery, or no Archery! I thiiiink I'll shoot the compound for the time being!

Whats on your bucket list? Is there anything in particular you want to achieve by your next birthday?? What do you think of my list? Should I add anything??

Amy,

xoxo